Friday, June 27, 2014

TAKE NOTICE



I haven’t kept up with writing a piece a week about one of the photos our youth photography program produced.  I’ve been busy, I’ve been down, I’ve been sick.  Ok, got that out of the way.

I picked this photo because it troubles me the most.  The only color is the two notices on the door, both of which are pulling away.  As if the framers of these theses didn’t really care if they stood the test of time.  The tape is pulling away; the staple was not driven in all the way. Their message is clear: time to get out.  You don’t belong here anymore.

And yet, artistically, the photograph is beautiful: the lines, the angle of the shot, the sense that maybe a little breeze is trying to lift the papers away.  The young photographer had an eye for shape and framing.  Also a lot of courage to take a photo of a heartbreak rendered in legalese.

I don’t know who lived here, and what ghosts might inhabit a building found to be condemned.  When children at church ask me if I believe in ghosts, I tell them no. When writing poetry, that’s another question.  I do think that when we inhabit spaces fully, the space begins to inhabit us.  That’s why in the best stories, the place itself becomes a character.  And the characters leave a trace of their spirit in whatever place they pass through.

I imagine there is some heartache behind these notices on the door, heartaches that may be hard to notice because they are hidden from us.  Perhaps a family of immigrants—documented children, undocumented adults—who had to flee quickly.  Maybe a family that lost a job or had a health problem and couldn’t afford the rent or mortgage.  Maybe an unjust landlord.  The meaning is not posted with these officials signs.  Only that the building has been declared “unfit for human occupation.”  We don’t know why the people who lived here left, or where they have gone.  It makes me cry out for justice, for renewal, for grace.

I have been writing a series of linked stories that first started being placed in my hometown of Austin, Minnesota.  But as the stories grew, it began to be more about a small city’s relationship with what became a ghost town.  In “real life” there was a ghost town named Two Rivers, just south of Austin.  In the stories I’m writing, Two Rivers has become the settlement that the townspeople blame for their misfortune, a place that houses the “other” in a way that makes the respectable citizens uneasy. Eventually they burn the people of Two Rivers out, blaming them for the Spanish Flu epidemic.  But the woundedness and the beauty of Two Rivers does not disappear, but rather becomes part of the landscape.

I wrote this poem as a companion piece to those stories. It was originally published in the Austin Daily Herald around Halloween last year:


WHAT IF A GHOST TOWN HAS NO GHOSTS?

What if its river carries no cries down its long
and twisted fingers?  What if the cemetery has                    
no hinges between heaven and hell?  What if
the stories you were told were told to the first hearers
not to  lift their wings or give them hope, but to
shut them up for every hour?  What if the shovels
and the pitchforks and the lanterns and the shouts
all marshaled to bring the old town down, still hover
in the copse of pin oak and maple that looks
over the long, slow bend in the river?  What if                                 
the houses, built log by log, peg by peg,
first the frame, than the roof, then the longing
in the roof, the longing for sky and protection          
from storms, the child’s dreams wafted into prayer,
the moon beheld and the sun obeyed; what if
the chair set by the sick bed and the stool pulled
next to the stove in deep winter were the first
to go up in flames; and what if those bodies,
the dammed and the saved, did not weep as they
were driven from their homes, but held their hands
as wings in front of their bodies,
two to cover the face, two to cover the flesh,
two to hover and to rise as if all sacrifice                  
were but the backlash of praise, and what if             
those angels, those devoured by our fear,
hold not to hatred, nor sorrow, nor the lust
to kill, but incense, candlelight, the taste
of warm bread and sweet wine, and what if
as you and I walk through fields of poppies and oxeyes,
our eyes brightened by the late summer sun,             
we discover that what we thought was curse
was blessing, and that these enemies
driven from among us, have returned
in our children, in our song, and will stand
for us in the last night, in the last breath,
in the sound of the trumpet?

What will we say then?

* * *

What are the ghosts in our communities, our houses, our nation that cry out to be noticed? What do you say?

Be justice. Be beauty.  Take Notice

Patrick

Tuesday, June 3, 2014

COFFEE BREAK


This is the second in a series of reflections about photographs taken by children in our photography project at St. Paul’s Lutheran in Minneapolis during the summer of 2013.

This photo was taken by one of our Young Leaders as part of the summer show “Under Construction”.  You can see that the building is more under destruction than construction.  Two glass blocks have been broken out. Knowing how sturdy these blocks are, I can assume that it wasn’t wind or another force of nature that took them out, but human action.  It makes me wonder who did it, and why.

I have to confess that I broke a lot of things on purpose when I was a teenager. Petty vandalism, which wasn’t petty to the person who had their property damaged.  I know that part of the reason I did it was to fit in with a group of youth doing it, or even to shine as the leader of that group.  Part of it also was the sound that breaking something made, a sound that was paralleled by a kind of controlled fury in my heart.  It felt good to break something. I could have tried to justify it at the time by saying others were breaking me, others were damaging me, and I was just trying to “get back”.  That didn’t exactly ring true to me, even in my wilder days. No, I think the truth is that I liked breaking things for the sake of breaking them. I liked being the destroyer.

I think we probably all like being the destroyer.  Is it innate in us, or something that we have built into our life together so that it effects every one of us?

There have been quite a few programs on the radio lately about the passing of Maya Angelou.  On at least two of them, I heard her quote from the Roman playwright Terence.  Terence was a slave from North Africa; purchased by a Roman Senator, who later gave him his freedom (that last phrase deserves a whole essay).  The quote Maya Angelou cited was "I am a human being, I consider nothing that is human alien to me.

As a theologian and follower of Jesus, that is a great summation of the Incarnation.  As a poet, that is a blessing to write about, for and with anything human.  And as a human, that exempts me from judging.

Maya—may I call you Maya, or would you prefer Ms. Angelou?—riffed off  Terence in a talk in Minneapolis in 1984 that was replayed this spring on Minnesota Public Radio.  She talked about how all of human experience is open to us, and we are open to it.  The thing that struck me the most was when she talked about the “most heinous acts that humans commit.”  She said that, being human, we cannot say “I could never do that”.  We can say: “I will try to never do that” or “I will work with my community to get the support to never do that” and so on. I’m approximating her quotes, except the one that says “I could never do that”.  That one I know I got right.

I cannot say that I could never kill anyone. Or torture. Or betray a loved one.  I’m not planning to do any of these things, but more importantly, I am trying to build a life that will keep me and others from doing those things: prayer, meditation, my support group, being honest with my family and friends, working for justice, confessing my sins honestly and accepting forgiveness graciously, trying to build a community of love where I live and I work.  I hope that I keep doing that. But I cannot say “I could never do that”, and strangely, that has given me a great deal of freedom.  When I trust that nothing human is alien to me, my fear diminishes.  I don’t need to fear myself or others, and that also relieves me of the burden to judge myself or others.

I could knock out the glass blocks in this photo.  I could also put the coffee there.  Whether it’s an offering, a sophisticated piece of littering, or something staged by the youth photographer, I don’t know.  I just finished my morning coffee from a coffee shop, and I’m going to take it home and recycle it.  Or plant something in it.  Or fill it up with more coffee.

Be justice. Be beauty. Be human.


Patrick